[R-18] Nice Body - Ayami Kuroneko

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Hello there! How were your holidays? I hope you all had a wonderful time.I started working on this one a few months ago, but then I went on hiatus and had to pause the process. Then I got a couple new ideas to add, like the little intro, the glasses, and the clothes on the floor, that\'s why it took me a little while longer to release.About what I had to announce...I\'ve been rehearsing this in my head for the past week and I still don\'t how to say this.The truth is that I\'m leaving Iwara.\nI can\'t stand this website anymore, the majority of the content being pushed nowadays is not of my liking.\nAnd while it\'s true that there are creators whose work I love and would follow until the end, I can\'t stand what the rest of the site has in store. I tried to ignore that content, to focus only on what matters to me, it didn\'t work on the long run.Last year, I basically logged in daily, and more often than not, I ended up leaving feeling down and even depressed when going through the recent videos page, even with the things I dislike blacklisted, I just seem to find things that I either find distasteful, indulgent, decadent or just don\'t appeal to me. No shame if you\'re into that, it just isn\'t for me, you know?While I did have real life obligations that took my time, one reason as to why I went on hiatus is because I wanted to take a break from this place, even if I didn\'t realize it that time. I didn\'t want to belive that this website I once loved coming almost daily, isn\'t the place for me anymore. Unfortunately, that started to take its toll on my mind. I became bitter, angry and resentful, waiting to lash out at anyone for no reason. I think that\'s what ultimately coerced me to take some distance, the fear that I would lash out at someone that doesn\'t deserve it.Another thing I sadly came to terms with when I was on hiatus, is that I barely or downright didn\'t miss Iwara at all. I basically removed it from my daily routine, something that didn\'t happen for almost 5 years by now. Even if the creators I love post something, I knew their posts aren\'t that frequent, so I could live a couple months without them.Now that I\'m writing all this I realize that, deep inside, I wanted to leave for moths now.\nI could\'ve easily just pulled the plug and run, or just say that I\'m taking another prolonged break and leave you waiting for a video that will never come; but no, I couldn\'t do that, you deserve better, you deserve the truth. That\'s why I\'m letting you know that I\'m leaving for good so you don\'t end up with false hopes of me returning.And yeah, a part of me desperately wants to say this is just another prolonged break, that things will eventually change and I will return, I have to cling to that hope, but reality just proves otherwise. The path the website is going for is one that I can\'t follow.And I don\'t want to alienate my followers saying I\'ll move my content to another platform, I don\'t know of another website dedicated to erotic MMD type of content without just being plain porn; and if there is... well, I just don\'t see myself posting my videos anywhere else.I have one final video I\'m working on in store for you all, before I quit for good. And it hurts because I just love doing this. Even now when I\'ve told myself repeatedly that I made up my mind I still hesitate, but I suppose it\'s a little too late to be doubleguessing now. Perhaps some things aren\'t just meant to be.Like we say in my country: la última y nos vamos.